In this world, there are many different types of people. If I were to ask you to describe yourself, psychologists would expect you to talk about personal characteristics (ex: beliefs, attitudes, likes, dislikes). When you were little, you'd probably tell me the things you liked and didn't like. Sometimes, these little likes and dislikes tell us a lot more about the person than anything else.
So what was the point of that little allegory? To be honest, I'm not certain. I just know that people always want to seem better to others around them. Why is this? Why do we work so hard to impress people? Why do we buy expensive clothes to impress people we don't like? Interesting how backwards the human mind works despite being so "advanced."
Before I continue, I suppose I should offer an apology for having incoherent thoughts strung together. Thoughts are zipping in and out of the forefront of my mind at indescribable speeds. Hopefully, everything will end up being one cohesive thought. It's late and I'm tired. Not to mention my pent up frustration and resentment. Well, I suppose I just mentioned it.. Oh well.
Realizations and Reminders for this week:
1. People who smile the most tend to have the most underneath the surface
2. Nice people will always be taken advantage of/taken for granted
3. No one wants to be the bad guy
4. Treat people the way you want to be treated? How often does that work out for you, really?
5. I am far from perfect
6. Everyone wants you to understand their point of view
7. The reason why people love watching shows like The Hills and Gossip Girls is because those shows are full of drama. People live off drama; they want fresh ideas on how to start some of their own.
8. Being mean is a lot harder for me than being nice
9. I think the sushi chef last Sunday made sushi with a knife that he used to cut an Avocado with for the sushi I ate...
10. God is so... Perfect.
Moving onward, so I got two pet cats. Their names are Miss and Patches. Patches, while taking 4 days to come out of his anti-social shell, has adapted very well to his new home. He and Maki have a shaky relationship but there has been no animosity from him. Miss, on the other hand, made my room her headquarters a day after she moved in. She is a fat one... I love fat cats. She is not so keen upon having to share the house with Patches and Maki at this point (Maki is the name of my roommate's dog, I should mention). I guess I should explain the whole getting pet cats thing. Well... I've always wanted a dog. 2-3 dogs actually, but that would prove to be difficult given the fact that I don't have a yard, and, more importantly, I'm allergic to dogs. I've also been intrigued by cats. The fact that you have to work so much harder to earn their trust and such. Only issue I have with cats are their claws. Anyway, I entertained the idea of getting cats for about 2 months, and scoured craigslist for a short while. I finally came upon an ad from a woman who had to move and couldn't take her cats with her. Their pictures were posted and I instantly adored Patches' black and white coat. I made two trips to the owner's [old] apartment to play with the cats before deciding upon whether I would take them or not. I wanted only one at first, but after talking to Ruby [the owner] and Nicole, I decided it wouldn't be too horrible to take them both. Patches is more like a dog than a cat, in my opinion. And Miss is very temperamental, but lets me put her on my lap. I love them both. Getting them was the first thing I have done purely for myself in a long time... I think I want to rename the girl cat... Miss is kind of lame in my honest opinion.
The past 2 weeks have been pretty uncomfortable for me. I was only enrolled in 4 units (1 class) after dropping 2 classes I simply added in order for financial aid to pay my fees. I was waitlisted in 1 other class, and I was trying to add another class. The class I was trying to add had about 50 other people trying to add. This lecture hall has about 100 seats, so people were waiting outside of the classroom while class started. I had very low hopes for getting into the class, but I made several prayers. Wouldn't you know, they got answered!
I got two parking tickets last week for not having a parking pass. Currently appealing them.
It's hard. But I try. Everyday. To be more like You. It is... Impossible, I know. But I will continue to try my best to love.
